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Need help & some ideas

razor47 — 2009-05-28T09:15:00Z

Okay, so next week on June 4th is going to be me & my boyfriends 2 year anniversary. YAY!:D I'm like sooo excited!!! But the thing is i don't know what to do or give him:[ I want to do something very special but I'm having a hard time coming up with ideas. I want him to never forget that special day. So i really want to give him something BIG to let him know that i really really love him. I have till next week to come up with something & i would love it if u guys can help me cuz....im like freaking out! lol. It would mean the world to me if you guys can help me out:]

I hate myself for this reason.....

razor47 — 2009-01-15T06:05:00Z

I really blame myself for losing all the good friends I had. I don't know maybe its just me but I hate it. And now I feel like I'm about to lose on of the good friends that I've ever made. It's always me that starts shit & it's always me that argues over really dumb & pointeless reasons. Maybe its just that I've been threw alot & I would really hate to lose this person over my stupid past. Its just really hard to forget & start fresh. & its also very hard for me to trust people. I know that you never did anything wrong, I blame myself for ever thinking bad things about you & im sorry. I would just really hate for our good friendship to end over pointless things. I would be so lost without you & I would never be able to forgive myself. I really love you & you're the best thing thats ever happend to me. You really are a good & special friend to me, its all I ever wanted & its all I'll ever need:]

Fill this out pretty plz, let me kno wat u think of me:]

razor47 — 2009-01-07T09:34:00Z

[1] Whats your Name?:

[2] Are we close?:

[3] What do you think of me?:

[4] Do you fancy me?:

[5] Would u kiss me?:

[6] Would you date me?:

[7] Describe me in 3 words?:

[8] If u Had Me for 30 Mins wat would you do?:

[9] What was ur first impression of me?:

[10] Do u still think the same?:

[11] What reminds u of me?:

[12] If you could give me anything what would it be?:

[13] How well do u know me? :

[14] What do u like best about me?:

[15] Ever wanted 2 tell me something u could'nt?:

[16] Could you ever love me?:

[17] Give me a nickname and explain why?:

[18] R u gona put this on ur blog and c wat i say bout u?:

[19] Anything 2 say b4 u go?:

hehe...i gotz bored in classXD

razor47 — 2008-09-17T11:22:00Z

When was the last time you were told you were cute?
yesterday:)

What was the last drink you had?
COKE! hehe...

Who was your last phone call from?
andrew:)<3 tehe...

What is bothering you right now?
my daddy being in the hospital:'(

When was the last time you were truly, completely happy with your life?
like 2 years ago....

What're you doing tonight?
watchn a movie & eatn junk food! yea...lolz

Where are your siblings?
hmmm...probably gettn fired from their jobz, lmao

Have you ever read an entire book in one day?
yup!

If you could have one person with you right now, who would it be?
andrew:)

Do you look at the keyboard when you type?
umm...maybe...

What are you most looking forward to tomorrow?
the day already ending lolz

What's the reason behind your myspace display name?
my fav song so far right now:)

Was last New Years enjoyable?
i seriously dnt remember....

Will you talk to the person you like tonight?
maybe....

What is your current mood?
bored, worried, sad....

What else is new right now?
the red streak in me hair:)

Last person you talked to on the phone:
andrew

Last person you texted:
daniel! haha

What are you doing now?
not payn attention in class cuz im doin this lolz

What did you eat for lunch:
nothing

Tomorrow is?
thursday

Do you have any plans for tomorrow?:
not that i kno of yet

If the year consisted of only one season, which would you choose?
fall

Do you hate being alone?
at times yea....but not rly

Are you tan?
nope!

Have you ever been out past curfew?
hellz yea!XD

Who was the last person you cried in front of?
andrew:'(

Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn't do?
o yea....

Who are you thinking about right NOW? Why?
andrew, bcuz imma c him 2day yay!:) hehe...

Who is the last male(s) you rode in a car with, disregarding dad?
my brother aiden lolz

Who was the last person to make you laugh? When?
sum guy in my gym class lolz

Have you ever been stalked?
o yea, haha...all the time!>=(

Do you think you will be married by the time you are 35?
yup!:)

Did you wake up happy today:
im not a morning person.....

Do you watch TV or listen to music more?
music

Would you rather your partner have gorgeous eyes or a gorgeous smile?
eyes

What month is your birthday in?
august
Who sits next to you in chemistry?
uh...sum weirdo haha

Would you ever get a tattoo?
hellz yea! & a nice 1 2:D

Did you sleep at least seven hours last night?
i nvr sleep....

Do you think that your name defines who you are?
idk...

What color are your eyes?
hazel
Are you allergic to anything?
nope

Did you have a nap today?
haha yea...in my algebra classXD

Where did you get the shirt you're wearing now?
hot topic!

Have you ever wanted to be a teacher?
fuck no! i hate teachers plus, im not gud wit kids i dnt hve patience wit them haha

Where were you 1 hour ago?
library

Has anyone ever told you that they like you more than as a friend?
o yea....

What was the first thing you thought when you woke up?
i need sum soda

Do you listen to nirvana?
no

How many pairs of jeans do you own?
like 5 or 3, not that many

Do you like your hands?
kinda, but not rly

4 ALL MY FRIENDS 2 FILL OUT!!!

razor47 — 2008-06-16T08:10:00Z

[ ] Push me into a wall and kiss me?
[ ] Come To My House To Do Nothing But Chill?
[ ] Slap Me?
[ ] Slap me if i asked you to?
[ ] Kiss Me?
[ ] Let Me Kiss You?
[ ] Watch A Movie With Me?
[ ] Take Me Out To Dinner?
[ ] Take A Shower With Me?
[ ] Take Me Home For The Night?
[ ] Let Me Sleep In Your Bed?[ ] Let Me Sleep In Your Bed (With You)?
[ ] Take Me Anywhere With You?
[ ] Repost This For Me To Answer Your Questions?
[ ] Lock Me In Your room And Take Advantage Of Me?
[ ] Let me lock you in your room and Take Advantage of you?
[ ] Let Me Make You Breakfast?
[ ] Make me breakfast?
[ ] Tickle Me?
[ ] Let Me Tickle You?
[ ] Stick Up For Me if I Was Being Put Down?
[ ] Instant Message Me?
[ ] Greet Me In Public?
[ ] Hang Out With Me?
[ ] Let Me Hold Your waist from behind while we are out?
[ ] Bring Me Around Your Friends?

Do You...
[ ] Miss Me?
[ ] Think I'm Sexy?
[ ] Think I'm Cute?
[ ] Think I'm Hot?
[ ] Think I'm Ok?
[ ] Think I'm Ugly?
[ ] Want To Kiss Me?
[ ] Want To Cuddle With Me?
[ ] Want To Date Me?

Am I...
[ ] Smart?
[ ] Funny?
[ ] Cool?
[ ] Loveable?
[ ] Adorable?
[ ] Great To Be With?
[ ] Attractive?
[ ] Mean?
[ ] Ugly?

Have You Ever...
[ ] Thought About Hooking Up With Me?
[ ] Found Yourself Wanting To Kiss Me Non Stop?
[ ] Wished I Were There?
[ ] Had A Crush On Me?
[ ] Wanted My Number?
[ ] Had A Dream About Me?
[ ] Been Distracted By Me?

Are You...
[ ] Happy You Know Me?
[ ] Thinking About Me
[ ] My Friend

If ur 1 of my friends fill this out........

razor47 — 2008-06-09T07:34:00Z

1] Whats your Name?:

[2] Are we close?:

[3] What do you think of me?:

[4] Do you like me?:

[5] Would u kiss me?:

[6] Would you date me?:

[7] Describe me in 3 words?:

[8] If u Had Me for 30 Mins wat would you do?:

[9] What was ur first impression of me?:

[10] Do u still think the same?:

[11] What reminds u of me?:

[12] If you could give me anything what would it be?:

[13] How well do u know me? :

[14] What do u like best about me?:

[15] Ever wanted 2 tell me something u could'nt?:

[16] Could you ever love me?:

[17] Give me a nickname and explain why?:

[18] R u gona put this on ur blog and c wat i say bout u?:

[19] am i a good friend?:

[20] am i ugly?:

[21] what would you do if i told you to leave?:

[22] what would you do if i died?:

[23] am i a horrible friend?:

[24] how do you feel about me and why?:

Rockstar Taste Of Chaos Tour

razor47 — 2008-03-18T14:04:00Z

Aghhhh...OMFG!!!! Im still a little jumpy from yesterday night. I went to the rockstar taste of chaos concert tour. AND IT WAS FUCKING AWESOME!!!! I got to see Atreyu, A7x, BFMV, and other bands from Japan...they were really awsome though i have to admit. Atryeu was awesome...they made the crowd go crazy!!!! and BFMV, aghhh my favorite band, they were just amazing, i screamed so loud that now I lost my voice...hehe. The finale was just crazy!!! A7x got to play...and let me just say the entire stadium went fucking crazy....everyone was screaming and shouting they're asses off. There was fire and explosions on the stage as they performed. They even had fireworks. They were just amazing...I had the best time last night. It was the best St. Patricks Day I ever had.

The lyrics to my favorite song from H.I.M>"Funeral Of Hearts"

razor47 — 2008-01-03T13:27:00Z

Loves the funeral of hearts

And an ode for cruelty

When angels cry blood

On flowers of evil in bloom

The funeral of hearts

And a plea for mercy

When love is a gun

Separating me from you

She was the sun

Shining upon

The tomb of your hopes and dreams so frail

He was the moon

Painting you

With its glow so vulnerable and pale

Loves the funeral of hearts

And an ode for cruelty

When angels cry blood

On flowers of evil in bloom

The funeral of hearts

And a plea for mercy

When love is a gun

Separating me from you

She was the wind, carrying in

All the troubles and fears here for years tried to forget

He was the fire, restless and wild

And you were like a moth to that flame

The heretic seal beyond divine

Pray to God whos deaf and blind

The last nights the soul on fire

Three little words and a question why

Loves the funeral of hearts

And an ode for cruelty

When angels cry blood

On flowers of evil in bloom

The funeral of hearts

And a plea for mercy

When love is a gun

Separating me from you

HOW IM FEELING AT THIS VERY MOMENT WITHOUT HIM...

razor47 — 2007-12-07T13:05:00Z

I seriously hate my life right now. I really hate being alone. It seems that if for some reason I've forgotten how to breath, now that he's not here with me. Whenever we are apart it feels as if he's taken my happiness away from me. Like my whole world is drawn in black and white, and not ready to be in color without him by my side. The colors in my life are fading away. My tears just seem to keep pouring down like rain. My love for him is so strong that I carved his name onto my own skin. My tears are filled with pain and sorrow. I hate going through this misery every single time we seperate. I've lost my reason to love, and care about life. There is no point to it anymore. Right now the pain just seems to sting all over, while the blood from my arm drains right onto the roses that he gave me. Blending right onto them, no one will ever notice. All I have to do, is keep all of my thoughts and feelings for him right inside my depressed little heart. I keep looking for the light in which will help me, but all I see in my mind is him. Touching my face and wiping the tears and suffering away. Pressing his lips right onto mine till I'm able to feel and breath again. Looking right into those gorgeous blue luminous eyes of his. I will stare right into them till tears stream down my face again. But...sadly, thats all just in my mind. Here I lay in bed crying for him and his warm comfort. Missing him, and trying to mend my wounds. Waiting for him to show up again so that I can stitch the cuts in my heart back together. Hoping for a smile to come across my face, once I see him. Being able to be held into his warm embrace, being able to feel that perfect kiss, and smelling that sweet scent of his return right on me. (I just had to let this all out, cause its been inside me for to long)

>I dedicate this to my one and only, the one who makes me feel whole

Have You Ever Felt This Way?

razor47 — 2007-12-03T07:30:00Z

Do you ever get the feeling that your being neglected. Like, you feel so alone and all you want is someone to hear you out? Whenever you go for a walk and look at the trees with no remaining leaves all you see is naked branches, and in your mind those look like arms looking for support. You just feel so unwanted and so depressed that you don't understand as to whats the point of living if your not happy. You just cant wait for that special someone to show up in your life so that he can give you all the love and attention you want and need. You just want to experiance your first kiss already. And to be able to hear those desiring three words, "I Love You".